Day three... approaching 24 hrs of no contact... I thought it was supposed to get easier with each passing day... Everyone says that if you can survive the first day, you can survive it all... Well, I'm not dying right here, but the horrible emptiness inside of me just won't go away~ I don't doubt that I was right to do it, but going back to loneliness sure is terrifying... I guess I've been trying to play games to make up for the lack of social activities... But it's no use... even fiesta doesn't sound even remotely interesting anymore... when nobody's around to share it~
I've stopped tearing at every impossible time, in fact, I don't get that searing pain anymore when I read old messages, and go through memories and pictures... But this doesn't feel like a healing scar any bit... Desperate to contact him... What is wrong with me?
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